I've noticed I've been burning more and more bridges lately, so what's another one?
I'm moving to a new username!
I won't say what it is.
But, I'm thankful for everyone who's ever decided to click that little watch button on my deviantArt!
It meant a lot and still does.
I just have to start anew. I can't just want everything to stay the same because I feel comfortable with where I am (to the point where I feel that I even have a say in something) and let that stop me from doing what's good for me. I haven't completely decided on that last bridge to burn, and I still have doubts, but at the same time, there was never anything there for me in the first place? I don't know. It felt right to leave the guild so it might feel right to leave this too? I'm not sure if anyone will care. I never contributed much so...it seems fine. Maybe I'll regret and join again with a different name too? I just know that I can't go back to what it was before. The sad me who'd just wait in anticipation of when that one person would come and talk to me and give me a false sense of security that all was right with my life. It made me so happy, but I realize that, that was the one reason I stayed in the community, if not for anything else. I love to draw. I love to sing. However, it hurts too much. In a way I feel abandoned, but I understand. There's many things people have to worry about, so there's no reason to get upset, but it still hurt. It hurt so much because in a way, I felt replaced even though I felt like I was a good friend for so long. Maybe I never was a good friend. I know burning more bridges isn't the best solution for the other bridges that are already ash in the wind, but it's all I can do. So. With that said, this all sounds really vague, but I'm sure everyone who needs to understand this message, WILL understand the message.
I'm done with everything attached to this username "iAnimePHr34k" for now.
I'm not sure what to do next.
In fact, I'm more lost than ever.
And the worst thing is, I think I've never realized how many people I pushed away by my silly one-tracked-ness until now.
I know I'm not alone, but it just feels like I am a lot of the times in my life.
But it's also a new beginning for me.
It's extremely terrifying.